THINGS I'VE BEEN FEELING

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27 they said

They said at 27 the metamorphosis intensifies. You wake up to your skin shedding your heart changing your body awakening. Your throat chakra is screaming to express. You set the boundaries. Your heart becomes more aware. And you feel like there is a calling do nothing but put yourself first. The serpent in you takes over and you EXPRESS IT. You RELEASE it. And you EMBODY it. You suddenly don’t have another option but to let the wilderness and that beating fire to take overrrrr the body 🐍 ☄️

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A highland of a dormant volcano can be powerful.

But nothing can be more powerful than our own mind. In a constant battle between my thoughts, I have days where I wake up completely knocked down by my mind. Sometimes I even lose my voice. Silence becomes a home. And alone becomes the comfort. Anxiety takes over during the battle of what’s right and what’s wrong. Yes and No. Losing my power. But then yoga, meditation (as little as a few minutes), and prayer instantly allow me to see the truth. To control that mind and to unwelcome any of these empty thoughts..

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As simple as this picture may be as much as it means a lot.

I’m tired of being fearful of literally everything. Of playing it small. Of wanting to always control the output of the things I do. I’m sick of it and I don’t want to keep bearing the consequences of that fear. I wanna fly just like i am here but in my head. I wanna remove that veil and break all barriers. I want to say no and not give second chances. I want to build boundaries and escape the norm. Praying for all those going through the same thing and hoping they take a leap of faith🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼

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Words from my feeling 21 year old self:

DIFFERENT
I always envied Every girl For being ordinary For choosing the easy way out Different I always felt My goals Priorities My heart Different This ‘unordinary’ life I lead Made me unpredictable One day i’m here One day i’m there .... My idea of happiness Always been different They marry to acquire happiness Whereas my only true Definition of it Was to be free Free from any undesired,uncontrolled emotions Free from conforming to any of society’s expectations And mainly..free from my mind I guess ‘different’ drove me crazy But it is not bad after all As it is the only thing I can be.